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[Dec. 7th, 2004|10:19 pm] |
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I can't wait to go home for winter/Christmas break!
I have so much Christmas shopping to do, I'm so excited. Also, I haven't even seen my new house yet, since I didn't go home for Thanksgiving. (Thanksgiving in Michigan was a lot of fun though).
My parents bought a pool table/poker/game table so I'm going to invite people over and have a lot of fun with that.
Alright, all I do these days is work and study, so it's time to go do some work. Blah. Later |
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[Nov. 4th, 2004|04:25 pm] |
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PsuSleepy (4:17:13 PM): r u coming here this weekend or something?
BrEaK It dOwN12 (4:17:22 PM): whos trhis
PsuSleepy (4:17:29 PM): um.....laura
PsuSleepy (4:17:44 PM): what the hell
PsuSleepy (4:17:52 PM): mike said u mentioned coming with chris and katie or something
BrEaK It dOwN12 (4:18:06 PM): oh my bad
BrEaK It dOwN12 (4:18:12 PM): this aint droc
BrEaK It dOwN12 (4:18:15 PM): this is wes side
BrEaK It dOwN12 (4:18:17 PM): he aint her e
PsuSleepy (4:18:20 PM): oooook lol
PsuSleepy (4:18:25 PM): do u know if he's coming to psu this weekend
BrEaK It dOwN12 (4:19:55 PM): duno
BrEaK It dOwN12 (4:20:01 PM): check back later tongiht
PsuSleepy (4:20:23 PM): ok man. sounds great
PsuSleepy (4:20:26 PM): i'll cya then
PsuSleepy (4:20:27 PM): lol
PsuSleepy (4:20:34 PM): for now i'll just watch TV
PsuSleepy (4:20:35 PM): LOL
PsuSleepy (4:22:04 PM): LOL |
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| Weekend |
[Oct. 4th, 2004|11:39 am] |
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Steve came up this weekend! Late Friday afternoon he got here and we were drinking High Life at Mike's. Their first keg of the year! So we didn't go to the concert right on time, but we got there in time to see all of Dave anyway. Mike and I had awesome seats, right next to the stage, really close. It was sweet, for the most part. After the show we went back to Mike's and a buncha people were there again. We ate at Penn State Sub Shop and all passed out there eventually.
Saturday morning I worked from 11-4. Steve chilled at Mike's until I got back and then I went over there to meet up with them. We chilled there for a bit, then got dinner at Baby's. Then we went back and drank wine at Mike's while watching the PSU game. A lot of people were over, and we sat in "stadium seating" lol. Then we met up with Laura, Steph, Nelms, Tom, Adam, and Tom's brother and we went to Bryan's house on Atherton. Mike and I lost in beer pong against Tom and his bro. but it was a long game and it was fun. The rest of that night didn't turn out so well...
I don't know what to do |
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| Funny! |
[Sep. 28th, 2004|09:49 pm] |
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Please...take this with a grain of salt...it's just funny, I forgot to put it in my Colorado entry.
Setting: playing pool at the restaurant/bar...Morgan and I standing at one end of the table, Mike at the other end.
I *joke* around, saying "He's so hot, don't you just wanna fuck him."
Morgan replies, "No...I'm not Meredith."
Hehehehe. I was just playing around but that sent us into hysterics. I love Morgan! I miss her so much! |
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| Mimimimi |
[Sep. 28th, 2004|02:36 am] |
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So Wednesday I woke up early and packed. Then Mike and I went and took the Greyhound Bus to Allentown, where brother-in-law Mike picked us up. We ate Jack Creek, which was delish, and then went home. I watched the Season Finale of Amish in the City on TiVo. I'm gonna miss that show. Then we slept at Lisa and Mike's. We woke up at 3am, drove to Newark IA, and our flight was 6am. We flew to Chicago, had a little time to kill, and Mike showed me around the airport (where Home Alone was filmed!). It was nice. Then we flew to Denver, and we saw Lisa & Mike there. We got the rental car, I realized I forgot my dress and shoes, like the dumb idiot I am, and we drove to the hotel. Our room was really nice, with such a great view. It was originally my parents' room, but then when Mike and I decided to go on the trip, all that was left were suites, so my parents took a suite and gave us the other nice room they'd had booked. Sweet!
The hotel was nice, with a restaurant that served good Mexican food. It was in Golden, CO, where Coors is from! So, of course, we toured the Coors Brewery on the first day. Mike and I couldn't get served, but my mom and dad gave us all their free drinks. Mmm. Beer. So the first night my mom and I went to Co. Mills Mall to get me a skirt to wear to the wedding...what a nice mall though. It was HUGE. It puts King of Prussia and Jersey Gardens to shame. Mmm. So then after the mall, my mom and I woke up our boys and we went out to this restaurant downtown Golden that had AMAZING food. But it was after 10pm so it was even later to us, I guess after midnight on our body clock's, so none of us felt like eating real entrees. We ordered like 3 fancy appetizers each. The food was outrageously good. I can't even explain it. Mmm.
Friday we all woke up early, breakfasted, and then headed to Boulder. Tourists we were. We saw CU and the Boulder Creek and Pearl Street Mall. It was so beautiful and amazing. I wouldn't mind going to CU and having all of that right there. Then we left Boulder and drove aimlessly up into the mountains. At one point Mike and I got out of the car and ran through a field off the road to get a better view and take amazing pictures. Then we napped at the hotel and got ready for the wedding. Keith and Abby's wedding was in an historic mansion on the top of Lookout Mountain. A charter bus had been arranged to transport the hotel guests to the wedding. What a scary ride that was. Anyway, it was such an interesting wedding. The ceremony was in this main room, and then we could walk around anywhere in the house, upstairs and all. They didn't serve a full dinner, but just appetizers. It was really good though. My mom got us glasses of wine, but then we found that we could be served with no problem. It was a fun night. There was no dancing, at least not for me, though, because the band was pretty much instrumental. It wasn't like all songs that everyone knows. It was really sweet though.
Saturday we woke up early again, and Morgan came, so we had breakfast with my parents and then Mike, Morgz, and I left to go to Fort Collins with Morgan. We saw her condo, which is AMAZING. I love how they decorated it, and it's so clean, and its just crazy cool. So we met one of her roomies, Danielle, who was very nice. Danielle, her friend Nicole, Morgan, Mike, and I all went and got alcohol and sandwiches and snacks and went to tailgate at the CSU game. We never actually went IN the game because we didn't have CSU student ID's and they normally don't check for that but this time they did...but it was okay. Tailgating was fun. The best part would have to be when we were walking around...Mike and I went to the bathrooms and when we walked back, drinking our beers, we saw the rest of our party talking to these cops on horseback, one of them actually being the CHIEF of police. We didn't ditch our beers, we just kept drinking them, and we ended up talking to the cops, petting the horses, all while underagedly drinking beer outside at a football game! That's a once in a lifetime even right there. Sweet. So we went to a bar/restaurant where everyone got served except me because I don't have a fake yet...lol...but then we got pizza also and played a little pool. After that Morgz gave Mike and me a tour of CSU campus, which is really pretty. Then we went back to her place and chilled. Then we went to the mall to get dinner, because everything was closed by the time we wanted to eat. We shopped for about half an hour after dinner. Then we went back to her place and put in America's Sweethearts but I'm the only one who stayed up to watch it, lol.
Sunday morning we woke up early AGAIN and Morgan drove us to the airport. Our flight was at 11:35 this time, but it changed planes in Dallas and we didn't get to Newark until 7:30ish, because we lost 2 hours and all that. So then we waited at the wrong door for our shuttle to the parking lot, so we didn't get out of there until REALLY late. When we got back to my house, I made Mike watch Joan of Arcadia with me. It was the season premiere, TiVoed from Friday night. It is the best show in the whole world, by the way. Then we crazy kids left at 10:30 to drive back to PSU. Mmm.
Today I was happy because I didn't have to work. I got some stuff done. I went to the gym, finally. I gotta get back into that. Today was the 3rd time since I've been up here. Tomorrow I'm working, Weds I have a Women in Business Mtg and a BA242 review session, Thurs. I have 3 exams, but then Friday Steve is coming up and we're partying, going to the concert, partying some more, and who knows what else fun stuff we'll all do. Mike's friends are coming up, Ben's friends are coming up, Rachel's friends are coming...ahh...between our dorm room and their apartment, hopefully everyone will have a place to sleep. I think Dereck's coming up too, but I don't know if he's staying over or not. Should be a good time! I just can't wait until Friday.
Goodnight world! |
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| Colorado here we come...... |
[Sep. 14th, 2004|02:57 am] |
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Today I called Scott, who goes to PSU Altoona, who is a friend of my Aunt & Uncle or something, who is driving home to Piscataway to fly out to the wedding. He couldn't give us a ride because his pickup truck only fits one passenger, so after a lot of brainstorming, my mom and I came up with a perfect plan. Mike and I are taking the greyhound to Allentown on Wednesday afternoon, and the ride is only 4 hours, which is pretty good, since the normal drive is 3. Then we're getting picked up from there and brought back to SP or Dunellen to spend the night. We're driving to the airport (Newark) early Thursday morning and flying out to Colorado. We'll get there at 10 something, because there's a time difference and all. I think we have a layover in Chicago or something, but it's short and I really don't mind. Then Lisa and Mike will be arriving around the same time, so we can hitch a ride with them to the hotel, since they rented a car. Mom was able to get a hotel room for us, and it's at the same place they're staying and Lisa & Mike are staying, so that worked out well. We'll spend Thursday sightseeing or whatever the family decides to do, then Friday is Keith's wedding, and then Saturday Morgan will come get us and we'll spend the day doing fun stuff with her. We're not sure yet what we'll be doing. Then we're staying at her apartment Saturday night and she's driving us to the airport Sunday morning. My parents are letting me drive the Saturn back to school again, since they aren't getting home until late Sunday night. I won't have it up here forever, but any time with a car is good!
I am SOOO excited about Colorado. First of all, I looooveee weddings! Second, I miss Morgan so much and we're going to have a blast, even if it's just one day, because we'll make the most of it! Third, it's like a mini vacation with Mike, since we are going to be flying by ourselves and all that. I can not wait.
This week pales in comparison...I'm working Wednesday, Saturday, and Sunday. I'm actually glad, though. Originally I wasn't working Weds. but Tom txted me today and asked if I wanted to work another day and I said yes, because I could especially use some money now. Also, since I haven't worked since last year, it'll be good to get back in the swing of things before I start working Saturday on football weekend. All I'm going to be looking forward to on Saturday is the partying after work... Friday won't be so bad, though. No work, all play... Rachel's family is coming up for the weekend and on Friday night we're going out to dinner.
Steph's coming up to visit soon. I forget if it is this weekend or not. She's actually staying with her b/f Scott, but we're definitely going to party while she's here! I can't wait!!
I should definitely be sleeping because it's 3am and I have class at 9:05 tomorrow. Originally my earliest class was 10:10, but I switched one of my recitations to 9:05...grr Mike...anyways...at least now I have a bigger break between my morning classes and afternoon ones. Long enough to come back and take the nap that I will so desperately need. I wonder if Chris will get lunch with me or if he's too pissed since I switched my class, lol...well...anyway...
I did horribly on the crossword puzzle today, so hopefully tomorrow I'll have better luck. I might need it to keep me awake if statistics gets really boring...
I really have to get to sleep, but first, I have to write about this weird dream I had last night, since Rachel's away message is all about her dreams, I feel inspired. I was on my way home from school with my mom and someone else, but I don't remember who. We passed this place with all these hot-air balloons going up, and it looked just like the balloon festival in Readington. I called Mike to tell him, because earlier yesterday he'd told me that he saw a hot-air balloon and thought of me. So...anyway, I called him, but he didn't answer so I got his voicemail, and it was so funny. It wasn't what it usually was, but it was just a message for me specifically, like "Sorry, Laura, I'm in the shower, and then I'm going to the football game, so I won't get your message until later. I love you!" and I was like "What the hell?" like why would he change his voicemailbox message to something like that? It was so funny. I can't remember any dreams where I was ever cracking up before, even if it was a good dream. I guess it really wouldn't be funny if it was real life, it would just be weird, but in my dream, I was cracking up. So it was good. I suppose I woke up happy. haha. I'm gonna go try to dream some more....Nite!!! |
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| Hmmm.... |
[Sep. 12th, 2004|08:25 pm] |
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I haven't written in forever because I've been really busy or just didn't even think of it. Today I'm sick, and I've been doing homework and stuff like that, so I figured I'd take a break and write some stuff.
This year is going well for the most part so far. I've been meeting all kinds of cool people, not to mention Mike and I are finally together and he is the most amazing boyfriend...
I'm starting work at Wendy's again next Saturday. There's a football game but I don't have work until after it, so that's cool. Mike, Brian, and Ben are throwing a joint party with one of their neighbors that night, but I don't think I'll be too late to the party. It should be a lot of fun.
This past weekend was cool, too. On Thursday I went to Mike's, we talked about everything, and that was Sept. 9, which I guess is our "official" anniversary date. I liked May 23 better, lol...but anyway. Then we drank some beers and went to a house on Atherton St. It was one of Laura's friends and it was a cool party but I really couldn't drink anything after eating 2 chalupas so I just chilled.
Friday night I went with Ben and Mike over to Meridian for a while. Mike and I KICKED ASS at beer pong, which I usually totally suck at. Then Kristin, Mike, and I went to Nic Towers, to Karl's apartment, who is in Rachel's business fraternity.
Saturday was such a lazy day. Nothing happened at all until dinnertime. Rachels, Mike, and I went to Panera for dinner, and then we bought lottery tickets at unimart and none of us won anything. Then we watched the Penn State game at Cedarbrook, and there were quite a few people there. Dereck ended up coming out as well, so that was cool. We chilled at Mike's, then we went to the huge party at Alexander Court. It was Nelms, Tom, Willis, and English Mike's apartment. It was somewhat of a dance party. A lot of Wendy's people were there, and a lot of other people that I don't get to see that often. It was a great party I thought. Then we went back to Mike's but across the hall from his apartment they were having a huge party with a lot of jungle juice. I only tasted it, because I was getting sick, but it was so amazing. I wish I was feeling up to drinking more and stuff. Oh well. When we got ready to go to sleep, I really really started feeling like crap, and I knew I was getting sick. Mike, being the sweetest boy that he is, actually went out at 2am and got me some throat lozengers. I can't believe how amazing he is. Even though I felt really sick, especially this morning at about 7am, he makes me feel so much better because of how caring he is.
It was a good weekend. I spent a lot of time with Mike, made up for some lost time we had there. I love him so much!
Currently I'm planning a trip to Colorado for the end of next week. It is my cousin Keith's wedding, and I really want to go. I'd get to see Morgan, too. It's such a pain not having a car up here. I looked up flights and started planning things out, but it's too expensive to fly out of state college, so we'd have to fly out of Newark, but the problem is, there's no way of getting home. My parents are leaving on Tuesday for Colorado, and that's too early in the week because of classes, so one of my Aunt's friends has a son that goes to Altoona and he's driving home to fly out of Newark to go to the wedding, and I was going to see if he could possibly bring Mike and me with him, but then I found out he has a pick-up truck. Nothing goes right! I really want to go to Colorado! And it will be so much fun flying with Mike and everything. A mini vacation. Hmm...so I'm hoping between my mom and everyone else, that there comes a Plan B...because I really want to go! |
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[Aug. 27th, 2004|07:10 pm] |
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So this week has been pretty busy. On Tuesday I left at 9:30 for PSU. I picked up Mike, and it took 2 hours to get to his house because of all the traffic. Then it took me another like 4 hours just to get to Penn State, and it should have only taken 3 from his house. Traffic was pretty bad, so I wouldn't advise anyone to use 80 to go anywhere west. We got here and unpacked, and Rachels was already here for an hour before we arrived. Mom, Aunt Trudie, Mike and I unpacked my stuff. Then we met up with Rachel and her parents all at the Nittany Lion Inn for dinner. The 3 of us had an Orientation Leaders meeting at 7 so we didn't stay at dinner very long. The meeting was stupid and we found out there was nothing to do for us all day Wednesday.
Then at night we went to Walmart to get a rug and some stuff. Then out to Cedarbrook we went for the first night of partying! It was Nate and Dave's old apartment. This year it is Dave and Riley and maybe another person, but for that night, nate was staying there too, because he couldn't move in to his apartment yet. It's cool because Nate's new apartment is right next door and they share a balcony so they took the divider off of the balcony. It's neat. And from Mike's apartment, they can yell back and forth on their balconies lol.
Wednesday was a busy, full day, too. When we woke up Rachel went out with her parents and Mike and I went out with Mom and Aunt Trudie. We went to Bellefonte, had lunch at the Grist Mill Tavern, which is the best restaurant around here, and then went to some little shops. Then we walked around downtown State College, bought some Penn State things, and i got a new skirt that says PSU. Then Mom and Aunt Trudie left to drive home, and I went to Walmart with Rachel. We got the rest of the things we needed, and then came back here, ate dinner, and finished setting up and organizing and decorating our room. IT RULES! It's the coolest room ever. I love it so much.
After all that, we got ready and went out to Penn Towers because Rachel's friend Jeff lives there. We met all his roommates and they seemed really cool. So we played Kings for a while. Then I was supposed to meet up with Mike at Cedarbrook again, but then me and him just ended up coming back to the dorm.
Yesterday we woke up early and I helped Mike and his mom move the stuff into his apartment. Brian was there moving his stuff in too. Then Mike, his mom, and I went to Hooters for a quick lunch before I had to meet up with Rach and do the Orientation Leader thing at McKean. There weren't many people moving in because the majority of them moved in today instead.
After that, we chilled, met up with Mike Brian and Ben for a free dinner at Pollock Commons. Then Mike hooked up my speakers, which kick ass, and removed the ugly lamp that was screwed in over the desk.
Rachels and I pregamed here for a little last night, then went over to Penn Towers again. We played a lot of drinking games like Kings again, Asshole, and some beer pong. Then I left to go see Mike's apartment all set up. I didn't stay there, though. I just left to come back to my dorm. I was here for a little while and then Rachel and Greg both called me to say they were gonna go to another party, so I went back to Penn Towers. We went to Canyon, but then just ended up going back to their apartment again. It was really fun.
Today was kinda boring, but we've been meeting some people that have recently moved in. Maybe tonight some of the girls will want to go out? Yay. Only a few more nights before classes start, though. O well! |
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| SMILES |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|08:25 pm] |
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There is a smile on my face again! Wanna know why?
muahahahaha.
Laura's Happy!!!!!!! |
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| coconut attack! |
[Aug. 23rd, 2004|12:41 pm] |
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The other night I watched The Butterfly Effect at Meg's with a bunch of people. I guess that is the last time I'm going to be seeing people before I leave for school. Then yesterday I cleaned out the Saturn, started packing, and then went to Mike's for the night. Nelms came over and the 3 of us chilled with some beer. I invited Steve and Dayna but they weren't able to make it. It was cool anyway though. I found out Steph and Laura from my floor last year are living in 103, the room right next to mine! How funny!
Today I am at work but have tons of things to do, including a lot of packing that is still left to do. At 7 I'm going to the mall with Darren. Maybe I'll find a few more cute shirts to get for school or something! Ahh I have a shopping problem.
Tomorrow is going to be great. Wake up early, pack up the cars. My mom and Aunt Trudie are taking her SUV b/c my dad is getting chemo this week and can't come. So I'll be picking up Mike and then driving up with him. He won't have all his stuff yet b/c he is staying in our room for the first 2 nights. When we get there, moving in should be fun. I think we'll all be there around the same time, lol. Then hopefully Mom, Aunt Trudie, Mike, Rachel, her parents, and I will be going out to dinner. We have an Orientation Leaders meeting at 7pm and then we're taking a huge trip to Wal*Mart to get the rest of the things we need, including food!!!
I CAN'T WAIT! This year is going to be so cool.
There's one thing that I thought was going to happen today but it hasn't happened yet. I'm not crossing my fingers about it, though. We'll see what happens. Anywho, I'm keeping busy which is what I was told to do. :) ?? |
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| Tuesday Bloody Tuesday |
[Aug. 21st, 2004|01:46 pm] |
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Tuesday...can you please come sooner?
Anyway, this is what I've been up to lately. Wednesday night, Mike came out and we went over to Christine's grandma's to swim at night, with a bunch of people. The water was soo cold but it was a good time. I feel like I haven't hung out with Avi Lindsay and Katie in a while so it was nice seeing them again, and I am going to miss them when I leave.
Thursday was Great Adventure! Then watching the Olympics, and watching Carly Patterson kick ass!
Yesterday was my brother Dustin's 30th birthday. They had cake and coffee at his new house on Elliot Pl. in South Plainfield. I got to see their new pets, which are Sugar Gliders. I'm sure no one has heard of them, but they're really cute. They're kindof like flying squirrels. So my mom had this great idea to make a book of pictures and people writing things about Dustin. They were putting that together for the past 2 weeks and it turned out really really good!
Today I'm chilling at work because I'm scanning the pictures I borrowed from Meg a while ago, and I'm also printing a bunch of pictures that I've taken from my digital camera so that I have pictures to hang up when I get to school. I have to pack this weekend, and see some people one last time before I go away. I'll be back on Labor Day but it's Christopher's 1st birthday party, so I don't know how much free time I'm going to have then.
I won $6 on lottery tickets yesterday, and Mike S. won $40 -- on one rub-off ticket! Ahh! So addicting... |
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| whopping cell phone bill!! |
[Aug. 18th, 2004|10:42 am] |
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The cell phone bills came in today. Mine was $171. I have a 400 minute plan and I used 544 or something. Now, this is a public service announcement for anyone who doesn't have verizon and was eating up my daytime minutes! Get Verizon!!! I might upgrade my plan 10 dollars more a month so that I can avoid this hassle in the future. But on a bright note, I didn't go over my text message monthly allowance of 500.
I'm in a good mood today. I bet you wanna know why. But it's a secret! I probably shouldn't be feeling like this but I can't help it! Muahahaha. |
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| A wintery day today |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|04:05 pm] |
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Last night the movie Alien vs. Predator was pretty dumb. It was good seeing the Kbtoy people again, but the movie was dumb. This is why. The predator, I think, was just a human in a stupid costume. I don't think it was scary or anything. I was just waiting for the guy to rip off his mask and be like "haha, Just Kidding!" lol.
So after the movie I went and smoked some dope, got lost in some town I've never even heard of, must have passed out, woke up around 3 in the morning to deserted streets and old buildings. Then I hopped on some random bus, paid the $3.50 fare, and ended up in New York. So I took NJTransit back home, called a friend to pick me up at Metropark around 6:45, and was sound asleep in my bed this morning at 9am when my mom woke me up for work. What a night! |
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| ice-blast |
[Aug. 16th, 2004|05:50 pm] |
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Last night I went to Musikfest by myself. It sucked. Also, when I walked back to my car, I couldn't find it. I'm really not that familiar with Bethlehem. Anyway, I did find it, obviously. I didn't get home until almost 12 and then I watched TV with my dad. We always watch the Joan show. Unfortunately, TiVo doesn't have any more scheduled to record. I'm going to make sure I watch it or tape it and then watch it while I'm at school. By the way, only 8 more days of this and then I'm back. The only reason why I don't want to go back is because of work. I'm making a lot of money and saving a lot toward my car; at school I won't be making as much. Other than that, though, there's nothing I will be leaving behind that I don't WANT to leave behind. I love my friends here, so don't get me wrong, but people sometimes just mention things around me that I don't want to hear or think about. It's not that I get mad at them or anything, but I really think it will help when I'm away from everything and won't even be hearing about stuff.
I ordered a duvet cover from www.wakeupfrankie.com. It is the Victoria's Secret one. It's white and light pink striped. It's expensive, but I couldn't find any that I liked anywhere besides that one. I still have to get sheets but I'm going to wait until the duvet cover comes in so that I can match them. I also have to stain my loft because I don't like the unfinished wood look that I dealt with last year. Probably this weekend I'll do that. It's time to start gathering up the college stuff again. At least it will keep me busy.
Tonight I am going to see Alien vs. Predator with Darren, Mike B., and I think Natalie. I'm not sure what to expect from the movie, but it should be fun. Friday night is my brother's 30th birthday. The Stin Man is turning 30! ahH! And Lisa is next. I still have a ways to go. haha. I'm a year away from being 20 still, since I was the mistake. Maybe that's it. I was never meant to happen. |
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| What Do I Do Now |
[Aug. 15th, 2004|02:27 pm] |
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I have no idea what to do with myself.
The other day I tried to do something that would maybe fix things for me, at least for now. I went to Joey's house and talked to him and asked him all the questions I've been wanting to ask. He couldn't answer most of them with any real answer, because there really aren't straight answers. However, even after hearing what he had to say for himself, I do not feel any less hurt. All I feel now is hopelessness. It is still all sinking in. Everyone is always saying their "what's meant to be will be" shit, and you know what? I just don't believe in all of that. I guess I wish that I did, because then maybe I could sit back and let life happen the way it's "meant to be." But you know what? Nothing is actually "meant to be" because humans were given this freedom to make their own decisions in life. Like how Joey and Meredith decided to do everything that they've done. The one good thing that came out of talking to Joey the other day was a promise that he made me, which I really hope he keeps. If I can just believe in that, I should at least be able to have a little peace of mind. Not too much, though.
There is one thing that I believe right now. It really has nothing to do with the "what's meant to be" theory. It's just something that I know because I feel it. It's the only thing that is keeping me going. If I end up being wrong about this, then I will feel even worse than this whole situation. But if I end up being right, then finally everyone involved will get what they deserve. And I'll believe the phrase "Nice guys finish last." There's a lot of stuff that I just don't have faith in, but I kinda have to believe that with all the shit that has gone wrong in the past year and a half of my life, something good is bound to happen soon. The universe will have to balance itself out, right?
I know that there are people in the world who are so much more worse off than me, so when I think about it that way, I'm okay, because at least I still have that thing I said I believed in. It's not like I have nothing, and I realize that. It's just so hard to deal with having your heart broken...again...
I am hoping that when I get back to Penn State things will be easier, because I will have more stuff going on. Plus, I will be away from this place, where everything I see and hear reminds me of things. 9 days until I go back. Approximately 4 months until I Lancer-shop.
And less than 3 years until the day I've been waiting for all my life. |
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| Lies Lies Lies |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|12:55 pm] |
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Joseph Reach: boyfriend for 3 years
Meredith Kalman: best friend for nearly 8 years
Put them together and what do you get?? The ultimate betrayal.
August 9, 2004. the day everything in my life changed. I can't even think back on high school and the good memories anymore that i had been clinging to, because all i think about is "was something between joe and meredith this entire time?"
There is nothing, NOTHING, that could ever hurt me as much aas this.
How could a human being with feelings lie to someone and claim to love someone and be sneaking around like this. I can't comprehend how someone could be sooo cruel. |
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| Jumping Paperclips |
[Jul. 21st, 2004|04:38 pm] |
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Hey Journal Land
The other night I went to Applebee's with a bunch of people. It was cool, sorta like in honor of my birthday. That was the night Mer wanted to walk home. It was interesting. Anyway, that was the night I've stayed up the latest so far this summer. It was after 3 when I walked into my house! lol.
Then yesterday I didn't really do anything because I was tired from the night before. It was nice sitting home relaxing for once. I caught up on my Days of our Lives and Joan of Arcadia Tivo'd recordings. Also I did some reading, and I called it an early night.
My friend from Penn State who I haven't talked to in a while I/Med me today and we're probably going to get together soon. Maybe make a trip to six flags. It should be fun! She actually lives in Princeton so it's silly we haven't hung out yet at all.
Tonite I'm not sure what I'm doing yet. Right now I'm just at work and felt like typing. Too bad I don't really have anything to say. Oh, except that my dad downloaded the BNL concert and I was listening to that all day. It was so awesome. They're supposed to be in Philly on Aug. 8 and I want to find someone to go with. Although, it's not listed on Ticketmaster for some reason. Oh well, what a let down. |
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| Summer 2004 |
[Jul. 19th, 2004|05:08 pm] |
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This is my first update of the summer. I really haven't written in forever, but I'm not sure how long I'm actually going to make this update. So far I've done some really fun things this summer.
I haven't actually learned to waterski yet but I went out on Mike's a couple of times. It was really fun. I wish my family had a boat! I believe that one day, I will have one though.
Ohio trip. That was June 5-12 and it was tons of fun. We got to Cedar Point, the Rock N Roll Hall of Fame in Cleveland, the Hard Rock Cafe, Put-in Bay, etc. The house we rented was amazing. The fact that it had a pool table made it even better, because even if we were just chillin around the house, there was plenty to do. They also had digital cable or something like that, which enabled us to watch Nick GAS and we had a ball making fun of Guts! and other shows like that. I wish I could have a piece of that Agro Crag. Anyhow, the trip had its ups and downs but all in all was a success. We talked about going again next year, and then Mer suggested we go to Florida instead. So we'll see what happens! (Mer and I are also planning on going out to Colorado to visit Morgan for a week or so next summer.)
After Ohio, I had to take a week off from my life and get my wisdom teeth taken out. I blew up like a chipmunk and the whole shabang. It was the most boring week of my life. A few people came to visit and those were the hilights of my week. Boy was I happy to be able to get out once I could.
Morgan came to visit on July 2nd, I believe. I went to the beach with her, Allison, and Mer on the 3rd which was a Saturday. It took me an hour to park the car, omg that sucked so much. But it was great getting to see her again. I should have spent that day packing, but I wanted to get to see her while she was here, so I was only down the shore a couple of hours. Then I met Joe at Friendly's and then I packed all night long for Turks and Caicos.
Sunday at 4am, I was leaving. The trip was July 4-11. I was pissed that I would be missing out on the 4th fireworks, Arts Fest, and Morgan's visit, but I was also really excited because I've never been out of the country before, let alone on a tropical island. Originally it was supposed to be my parents, Lisa, Mike, Christobaby, and myself. However, because of my dad's Chemo, he wasn't allowed to leave the country until January or February, so my parents opted not to come on the trip. I then wasn't going to go either, but they made the decision that I could still go with Mike, Leese, and Christopher. So that's who all ended up going. We left out of JFK in NYC, and the flight was only 3.25 hours or something like that. We watched the Matchstick Men on the way there, so it went fast b/c I like that movie. We stayed at Beaches all-inclusive resort on the island Providenciales. It was a lot of fun. There were a few really nice pools, which had swim-up bars, and then of course, the amazing ocean. It had no waves at all, and it was this beautiful turquoise color. I went snorkeling for my first time, too. We saw a few turtles, and this one swam up to the surface and poked its head out 6 inches away from me. It was unreal. I had an underwater camera but I still have 7 exposures left on it. God only knows when I will have the chance to use those up. Hmm. Anyway, the week was AWESOME! The food was the only thing that wasn't awesome, but it was alright. I babysat Christopher 2 nights for a little while so Lisa and Mike could eat dinner alone. It was sweet.
The day I got back from Turks and Caicos, I was barely home before I went to meet up with people at Steve's house. It was Morgan, Allison, Mer, Joey, Myke, Michelle, Steve, and Dereck. We drove up to the Devils' Tree b/c Morgan and Allison, obviously, had never been there. Then we all went to Washington Rock. I never remember being there before that night. Maybe I went when I was little once, but not any time recently. It was really cool. The next day, Morg, Ally, Mer, and I went to Wendy's for lunch and then they had to go and catch their plane. I'm glad I got to at least spend some time with them while they were here.
The last Friday that just passed, I went to Medieval Times for Tanner's 11th birthday. I can't believe he's 11. He's my oldest nephew, but I still remember exactly when I found out he was born. It so doesn't seem like that long ago! Yikes. So it was my Mom, Dale, Jim, Tanner, Luke, Trevor, Dale's sister, and Dale's parents. It was cool, even though our team didn't win. Luke cracked me up because he wouldn't leave my side. He's soo adorable!!!! Then when I was leaving there, Joe asked me to come to his friend's house for a little get together, so my mom dropped me off at Greg Morre's house. I didn't really know anyone there, but I met Phil Deganaro and a couple other people. Phil is Joe's friend from working at the camp, and he cracked me up because he was telling me how he remembered Mer and me from Study Hall with our blue face pads. HaHaHa!!! So they had all been drinking when I got there, but I just joined in. Poor Joey -- vodka doesn't mix well with him... At 1:30ish or something, Meg came to pick us up. Originally Steve was going to, but then Meg offered. So she drove Phil, Joey, and me home. Thanx again Meg! It was a great way to bring in my birthday! lol
So Saturday was my birthday. I visited the Allocco's for the first time since I've been home this summer. I miss them so much! Ugh, why did we have to move. I talked to Mrs. Allocco, Courtney, and Mike for a while, and then I met up with Meg and Mer for Wendy's. Then, I went home and got ready for the concert!! At 5ish, Joey, Lisa, and Mike all came over and we ate a delicious Honey Ham prepared dinner. hehe. Then Lisa and Mike left for the Arts Center. Joey and I went with my parents soon after. There was no traffic, luckily, so it didn't take long to get there. I was so excited. We still didn't know who would be playing first: Alanis Morisette, or Barenaked Ladies. It ended up being BNL, which was good, because then we didn't have to stay and listen to that irritating voice of hers, lol. I was so impressed with their show, I loved it! I've seen them a few times before, but this was my favorite concert. The best was their shopping cart fiasco during "Shopping." They are so cool! So since we left before Alanis, we had plenty of time to chill afterwards. Joey had me driving his car, because he is actually getting a new clutch today, so it was a good time for me to practice driving stick. I drove to Meg's, but we didn't see anyone there, so we called and found out ppl were at Bubnick's so I drove there. We stopped in for a little while and then I drove to the rescue squad, where we met up with Christine and Myke. Then, I drove his car back to my house in Dunellen. I couldn't believe how much driving he let me do! I think I'm getting better...hopefully.
Yesterday, Sunday, was Dylan's birthday party. He actually turned 9 last month but Dustin and Dana bought a new house recently, in So. Plfd, so they waited to have his party until yesterday. It's a cute house. Too bad it rained, though, because they cooked stuff on the grill. I didn't eat much anyway, because when I left there, Joe picked me up to go out to eat. This was his birthday present to me, but it was a surprise where we were going. Well he drove me to Vincenzo's (my favorite restaurant), and then we went back to my Grandma's for a couple minutes. He also gave me a CD visor and Foot freshener for my car (more motivation!). We only stopped in there for a few minutes, and then he told me he had another place to bring me, which ended up being Starbucks and up to Washington Rock. It was foggy because it was rainy but it looked really cool anyway. We talked and chatted for a while up there. Then we sat in the car for a while, talking more. I was going to drive his car for one last lesson before his new clutch, but it was all wet out, so even though he woulda let me, I was too nervous. We went back to my house and watched most of the Santa Clause before he went home. It was a great birthday present!!
Tonight, besides hopefully winning the lottery, I am meeting up with people to go to I think Applebee's for half priced munchies, in honor of my birthday.
I would like to recommend reading the Da Vinci Code. The book is absolutely stunning. I would also like to recommend checking out ingdirect.com. If anyone is interested in opening up an "orange savings account" (with high interest!!), let me know and I will refer you, because if you get referred by someone you get $25 and I would get $10. So it pays off.
Also, Thursday is the beginning of the Balloon Festival in Readington, which I definitely want to attend. This weekend is also Meg/Katie's party, so it'll be a good week. |
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| Complaints |
[May. 1st, 2004|03:14 am] |
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1. Why am I allergic to everything under the sun? I'm allergic to grass, to fruit (but I eat it anyway--I'll show them!!!), and most of all Pollen. They call it "hay fever" -- this torture that I'm miserably enduring right now. I woke up this morning and I was like "shit." Many different types of medicines and many hours later, not only have I not improved, but I've gotten steadily worse. I went out tonight hoping to have one last fun night out at college my freshman year, and I couldn't even stay. I didn't even have a sip of beer just for the taste. That's how miserable. Mike, you're sweet for coming back with me because I know you wanted to stay.
2. I can't even go to sleep and it's 3:16am. I hate not being able to sleep! Why can't I be tired?!
3. I have 5 exams. FIVE finals. ALL cumulative! One Monday, 2 Tuesday, 2 Thursday. No one else has that many. I'd love to trade one and have a paper to write instead. Ugh.
4. I have no idea what's going on about Cedar Point, because every night I hear bits and pieces of the latest news, and I feel like there's nothing I can do since I'm not home. But then finally everything seemed worked out so I was happy and grateful to everyone that tried to fix things. Then I find out today that one person might have ruined it for everyone but I sincerely hope not because I'm looking forward to it so much and I love all you guys.
5. Fundraising Co-chair for ARHS. Who has better experience and could do a better job than someone who was JUST FUNDRAISING CO-CHAIR for their area this past year?! It's not fair. I hate politics, even just the stupid little Penn State governments. Sorry I'm not the most outgoing perfect person the first time I meet someone. I try but I guess I'm a little shy/nervous! Why don't you try asking the people I worked under if I did a good job and would be a good candidate?! Fuck that. Maybe if I'm lucky I'll be a rep. in SHRA next year but hey, I might not even be good enough for that.
I'm really not in that depressed of a mood but due to my lack of sleep I just think about these things, and mostly it started because of my never ending allergies that are so frustrating right now. Just needed to vent. Grr arg. lol. On a bright note, I suppose my allergies won't be as bad in a day or a few days, because they never usually last very long being this intense...I'm sure I'l fall asleep if I actually climb up there and lay down...If I actually study hard I guess I can do pretty well on my finals...I don't think we will actually be screwed out of the house at Cedar Point unless that lady is truly a bitch...and there are more important things in life than being in arhs...like being able to work monday nights and make money instead! haha.
GoodNite |
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